Bitter sweet
I have always been teased why I remain single. Every ocassion seemed to be like a disaster, because I know I will be the center of attention in one way or another..
Now, and why do I remain single? And why not? It’s the same when someone asks me why the sky is blue. I have repeatedly said I am single by choice but seems like still some people refuse to believe it. A young, pretty and intelligent like me should be married or engaged by some standards, but since I consider myself as a non- conformist, then I don’t think it’s a big deal.
And yeah, I’ve had couple of dates, but seemed like some guys are :
- either too busy with their lives and refuse to grow up
-is gay
- is straight but jobless
- is too handsome but there’s nothing between their ears… (or was it legs, Marcy? Hahahaha..!)
- is too much for me, I don’t wish to be even associated with them
- is not interested in me (but still they went out with me.. that actually puzzles me a lot!)
- is only interested in something… unfortunately I can’t reveal in this blog in the spirit of maintaining my good and sweet image:)
But I will tell you a secret: In all honesty, I am liking someone, but I wish I can tell that person how much I like him. To even say I love you to him puts me in an akward position and I’m sure he will be, too. So, let’s just say, I pray every night that this persistent heart of mine may finally be tamed and that my feelings for this person shall be blown just like a wind. I was never afraid of being single in my entire life. If it’s meant to be, then so be it.
And before I forgot, I am not complaining. I have never complained. I know one day, I will soon forget this feeling and in fact, I am so looking forward to that day.
So to this guy I am liking: Seize the day, because tomorrow is just another day….. And I maybe just another girl, but nobody has the right to treat me this way..
